WHAT NEXT?!!

I thought of writing a farewell page for you this day, I'm distracted once more. I thought of presenting departure song, with a tears I can't sing out once again . After since I heard from you my heart started to ache what love really gonna happen..  no this is not the End! No farewell, for my love remains still for you and on. I've kept your love to the deepest of my heart that no one gonna take it away, but now what my heart long (that warmth of your love) really gonna happened? From the time I saw you my eyes burns for your presence but now I'm all alone almost left behind in your love.

The place we first met,and the day we were together remains in my mind reminding what precious memories to be kept. You are the only one that makes me think alive. Your cares and love for me are much higher than anything precious found which will be remaining in my life . 
Your time sacrificed for our love by every riches can't be bought with- but a gift worth than everything.

What will I do now, I've been fooled now, my only aching heart burning with a flame of my love for you. Is this our love! Your tears flowing all alone, burning face with tears of love, every heartbeats remind of our love from the first sight. How do I spent this days without your love, your heart, your presence of sweet fragrance filled with sweet voice whispers.

(Baby) I need your love today, tomorrow and forever. Tears after tears in my pity heart what can be done to restart our love. It has been four years now from the day our love bind us to this days and those years were running much shorter than before. I longed you in my arms today but I'm sure this time won't come back again. I've no words to express my love for you dear, but only this non-stop aching heart longing and begging for those days spent in love, making laughs of love, cries of love, tears of love, words of love, time spent in your cheerful voice ,singing with responses . What the Earth has made for us to long for each other day and night!!

I have nothing more to give you rather than a wordless heart burning with love for you. The time that we made, the days that we spent, the words that we talked will be my memories forever and ever till my last breath. I wanna meet you once more, wanna be together in arms even for just a second, wanna see your radiant blooming face just for a blink BUT  will time permit us for this days? And I know for sure you do love me more than you can express from your whole of your heart. But this compelling phenomena(situations) prevent us so. .... I've no words to beg you farewell for my love for you remain the same and longing more and more . What the world thinks of our love , what time thinks of us?? 

The days spent together will be a days for my life, that I've started to think I'm alive with loves and your presence besides me reminded me that I'm not alone in this world but with someone who can be shared with sorrows, happiness, love, sadness and every events of my entire life because you are so much meant for me. I'm so sorry for you too for I can't be a phenomena for your life. For not able to be with you forever as we used to talked about in the near past days. I'm sorry for being me in your life but not being him. I've sorry for myself for not being able to be with you all day long.

I've started to think away our Love  full of sorrow what would happen next???? Thinking and  thinking , trying hard to be away from that world of emotions but how will I stop thinking of it. It reminds me of our love again and again with continuously ringing in my mind and beating of love along with heartbeats that I owned. Would you think at once what my love for you is all about. What will I do next ,,,,,,to remAre in relationship once more with you baby.
No clue, just heartaches, burning with your love filling all my blood . I wanna spend every breathe with you. I wanna grow as old as our loves remain with you only. 

If this is our Love  than why god has made us so tired , feeling for each other  or why has he not taken away the feelings that are prevailing in every seconds of our life?

Is True love like this to suffered? Is true love a mere play that can't stop thinking one another but a strong burden between?
If I'm to think and think ,again and again for our love , what might come after! I'm not sure the good might not present me and for you especially 😢 but it will be okay. But  I'm sorry for I can't take you away from that burden which is not a bearable one for you facing now and then. I'm sorry for I'm not the one who is coming after. I'm sorry for I can't be a person you gonna chose for your life long. I'm sorry for I can't be with you forever as we want it.
I'm sorry for my life too for I don't possessed a MAN LIKE ACTION in this situation. I'm sorry for I came into your virgin Love(life) and burdening you, suffering you that much. I'm sorry for I'm a man of not yours as of now. I'm sorry for the time, days ,words that might hurts you and suffered you a lot much. But baby I've not really meant to let you suffered.

Now I've to leave our world of love , happiness, and everything as this world might be the reasons (problems) that you and I are facing (suffering) now. 

I've to beg you every forgiveness from you now that I might have disturb you in your daily chores, daily life , your studies, your purposeful career and every mistake that I've done to you. Actually I'm not really meant to disturb you darling. For the named that I've called you, for the interruption that I've made, for the angers that I blamed upon, for the stories that I joke on you but I really meant to cheers you, for everything that might hurts you. But darling those things are not what I wanted to be.

I've learned so many things , which are more than a beneficial for my life. Thank you for everything that you made me what I'm today. If I'm without you I might not be in this position too. Thank you for the encouragement in my studies, in my disappointments, and many more that you have been just for me. Thank you so much for being for me throughout this days. Thank you for every times that you spent just for my sake. Thank you for your life spending every seconds, every breath just for me. Thank you for living in my days of depression, sorrows,sadn sad and many more that I can't mentioned now. Thank you for your cares, precious time, energy and everything just for my life. ..... I've no words to express my gratitude and love for you BUT  you I have loved you more than everything I could in this Universe. And Thank you for  LOVING ME AS YOUR LOVE. Please do include me as your TRUE BEST FRIEND 🙏 . 

With tears filled and Love from the deepest of my Heart I WISH you a prosperous woman in the days to come. I wish you You love your life mate as you have Loved me and much more. Wishing you a life filled with happiness in your heart. A life with care for everyone. A life of THE BEST EXAMPLE FOR THE WORLD TO BE NAMED. A love for all human ,love for near and dear ones, love for friends, love for enemy too. Be a blessed woman in near future. A blessed woman for a near generations to come. Wishing you from bottom of my heart and mind and Love- BE A WOMAN OF OUR GOD THE FATHER AS YOU HAVE BEEN LOVING NOW . Love for everyone, care for everyone,kind for everyone, respect for everyone , a hopes and desires for everyone is also Love for our God. Please do remember this line.

This is a world of pity, a world of sorrows, a world of hatred, a world of foolish wars, a world of jealous, a world of foolish competition, a world of discouragement. To live in this world is to face every battlefield approaching in our daily life. Wish you have courage to face(overcome) all of them from now on. I wish I could be able to overcome (faced ) them too in near coming. Fight for the best with  a feeling of Love for everyone, everything and with our God.

To leave you is not what I really wanted to be.
To leave you is to face a sorrowful life to live on. 
To leave you is not a destiny but a circumstances.
To leave you is what is to leave everything at once.
To leave you at once is to leave my life. 
To leave my life is to leave my Love for you.
To leave my love for you is to leave this whole world at once.
To leave this world at once is to live no more!😢

I never thought of leaving you my love, and I'm still confused , not clear whether I will leave you now or nog 🤔. 
But I'm sure leaving each other does not mean we are no more a friend, no need to love each other again as before, No!!! But we are going to love more and more. Care for each other, encouraging for each other, living for each other in the days to come. Leaving you in my life is what I'm going to face the most undesirable pain than anything I can come across in my life. I have a feelings for you too the same pain when we have to leave each other. 
But Love is what actually the power to adjust to the circumstances facing day to day with time.
Loving you is the most precious time spent , the most perfect cared I got, . To love you is what we called " Everything" in my life.
I wish this must be a dream for it pain me so much, thinking of you ends up my day. But what can I bring this to be a dreamland 😢.
Love is an immortal and so you in my life!
If I were Your ROMEO what would be our life? I'm again sorried for not being able to be your Perfect Romeo.......
What can I do now to rub (erase, vanish) away our tears from this world of Love for each other......


NOW, I'M SCARED WHAT NEXT BE???????????????????????????



                M. Riamroi.




I have never ever experienced what Love really is. 
I've never ever faced what love like.
I've never made a promise that love is Love.
I've never crossed a star line for someone.
But I've read thousands of mind and that made me think and imagined Love is nothing But  A disorder of someone's mind filled up with puzzles.

Thanks.................
The words , sentences, expression are all mistake.........
You may read out or not it's just the idea of someone's mind.



              😂😂😂😂😂😂

INMUAN TANGAK

Naosen ga bacham se onge, nathot le sai
Inmuan khat za to ong, nasungle sai.
Nam jei sanu, kariangnu thot le phun,
Bariak teitei seswak le, thumrimnu nachong rai.

Ei ongta la hung-nge, ramsanu naka-ongriak
Inmuan tangaak to ong, o abaan kasanu,
Rin bachak soklan, banou lamnu namai kom.
Baniamga hung-nge eile napam, louthango
Ong nuam rwe inmuan la akum kasei
Inpaan seswak lat maklang,
Bangpui thango tipka banemnu nakariang na.

Ramrwan se ongnu katheirwan male nang inkuwe.
Ngai sai, saang-basa laa tonu,
Hama le nakhwan na thuk inkuwe.
Tamlet ka-ta basaangga barui kazangse,
Phaangsa inkuwe nalaam.
Eile inmuan se hanhung lat narwe, nariak sabi onglang.

Sunpha tabi nameiri ngai ga ongnuam me,
Zingpha tabi tamdi laam dingle ongcham ong-nge.
Bangeipui hungbi, inmuan katang luptuse! Naman phaang enlangna.

Sangmuan heichan, akum kasei, inmuan tangaak sanu ding ung bacham onglam re.

                           M. Riamroi
       
               
                         

Goodbye- My Dear Friends

                      Image: shot during 2007


Baning-nge, se bacham ongnu kaan

Karo-sa ga, kaluang se bariak bathin

Nang-arwei, meiri le Raicham thiruai sia hungbi

Kachui thang kali ongnu Avaanrwan,

Nating khwasei bacham onglang bakaan

Heina janah thang, vaan kasarwan no.


(Lozaanlo), vaan kasarwan ding katoinu bakaan lang.

Nachwan-achwan, tei hung re,

 Nariak-ariak le inpaan hung re.

Kakhan luga, sung riangre makjo,

Naluning le inpaan makka Ong ngo.

Bakaan khwasei ga Ani karung latlang je,

Nachwan-achwan kasa, phunlu inkunu

Karo-kaan Bina kadou lat jo.

Katoinu kanoi vaan kasarwan ding!


Baning-lo, asung changring Ong,

Nang-arwei naosen kumding, kadai Cham bariak bathin

Baniam-lo para pacham, school le secham.

Nang-arwei singthou-riak bathan satka

Seswak ke, namla nu ramla.

Bakaan na kaluang-lo, kapaang thangrwe vaanrwan no.


Kasanu ding kajap lo phunhung thango

Navaan eilin Kasia chwan banim ong-ga

Kadou latnu kaan jo, aninao, aniwa, 

Aninam, anichaat, kale thang rijo.

Adita, intun langbi hei kanoi thang-nge.

                               M. Riamroi

DOLEFUL LOSS OF LOVE

All through an idle settlement abode I go,
And unearth her, nor in any room.
The pristine glaze candle and lamps I light;
Went beneath to loss before a tempest of gloom.

Solid-spraddled lies the junk about
A descent sad place to write her dear names
Or sketch her identity the form she looked,
That myth legendary night she cames

The wretch home crumbles part by part bit,
Each day, I heard ominous-foreboding thud
That reveals different rent out there while ago.
For gales to pierce and storms to flood.

My luscious orchards groan and weaken with fruit bore.
Where legend wise the busy bees go round.
I let them corrode upon the trembling bough;
And ate what drops upon the dusty ground.

The weary cows went drudging; seems pressure
In a torment woes with roated teats.
My puny hands slacked , my blood chilly
I marveled that my weary heart still beats.

I have no devise to lament or to merry
 No meanest longing bent to solicit or curse.
Fading of affection who utter death is worse.


                Alvin thiumai

Message from the little heart

Dear love, 

 It frastrate me that this is the only way l can convey my thoughts to you-not knowing if you will ever see this, but I had to give one last shot. Chances are,if you are reading this, you are here with the same reason and I can say'Mission Accomplished' I have the slightest bit of lingering hope that something will lead you to this site, your eyes to these words, and your mind back to what we used to be.

 I cannot possibly put into words how it feels to have you shatter hopes and dreams and rip my heart into pieces. It is soul crushing and heart wrenching to know that our part in each other's lives has comes to an end. The hardest part is that I now have to envision a failure along with my hopes and dreams which have not been changed ..... The only modification is that you will no longer be a part of them. Although it seemed at times,as if we were rock solid and nothing could divide us, we are fragile. 

Every "I Love you","I'm so happy with you" "I'm in love with you" seemed to be another brick to the wall between us and the world. Little did I know is, you are the one and reason to tear the wall down that I'd built it for you but neither that painful as if. We had our times ,our short moment in times where we shined a while ago and I would not take anything in the world for it. For whatever reason, you saw it best for me not to be a part of your future. I could have given you the world My love but swear I would have made you feel like the only person in it. Our times came to an end long before my love did.

 I know it hurts, it tears you, And I don't know what else to tell others than I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the sadness and frustration that paralyses you, the sadness that makes you feel like pushing forward just to go through the emotions.

 I'm sorry for the pain that stings you, makes you feel like I'm right onto your open wounds and apologize for the dought that plagues you; the dought that lets you feel like love is risk that's no longer worth taking. I'd tried to protect you. I have built a wall as high as those that rise up around castles strong firmed thick enough to keep a tempest of emotions at the bay of sea.

 I oath to you that I'll be straight in my part ,I'll keep you safe but that doesn't work out. But how prepared could we have been? It just happened all in the blink of an eye, and suddenly there was indeed a new warmth to you like cookies fresh out of oven.

 Piece by piece, the wall is tearing down, day by day you just grew bigger and Fuller. Then a time came you just burst through. I tried to talk to you softly and tried to be level-headed with you; you wouldn't have any of it; I was scared for your sake but you feel high confident in yourself, you stood so powerful,yet as vulnerable as ever and you found your voice I listened as the feeling goes materialized , as the words can ran through the air like you were crossing a finish line, you were steady, prepared and proud. It felt behind; you and I agreed on that, the wall was down and promises were made by everyone involved. I took one last step to keep you safe; "Promise me" you said "You won't forsake" . That was that; you were sold. You were running through the hills singing, splashing through the ocean waves, drinking in the sun and the sky and sparkling with the night stars. You were young and free, and the rubble from the broken walls looked like pebbles in distance.

 I should have kept my wits about me ; should have kept you wandering astray but life happened too fast. The love was overwhelming , blinding and for the longest time you were seems happy one day/wasn't.

 But you were already in an embrace; you dived into what you thought was the best place where you would be most protected, where nothing could hurts you, you didn't want to listen to me. I'm sorry you felt like you could stay there forever, I'm sorry you like it was refuge that was all yours. I'm sorry you felt like nothing could reach you out there and I guess there is something scary in feeling so safe. For while I wandered whether it was possible to live without pulse. I wasn't sure whether I was yelling that for your sake or mine. Sometimes you nod expressing like you get it or we are on the same pages. Sometimes you feel your way back to a moment in time and you turn to me this battered , beaten shadow of yourself with heavy eyes and a silent stream of trees 'leave me, forget me' you pound back to me. 

 The tears burn my weathering cheeks as vicious gust of winds blow. We only grow older , we only lose time. Nothing can be erased like the words on these pages. Maybe that is why I live so often in a world of fiction. I can remind myself that none of it is true except that all of it. Every words written meant something to someone. There is pain and misery and heartache in words.

Know that love is a beautiful, scary thing,but that isn't something to fear or be afraid of. There is light in darkness and if there is anything that I can promise you, it's that this too short pass. This won't last forever.

 You may find yourself hurt again the future, or you may find yourself perfectly wrapped up in the arms of forever. But you'll never know unless you try.

 About the text:

 This short article is written in the author's request. The author clearly point out what is Love and it's effects. He also suggests to the reader that Love is something beautiful, scary things But it's not to fear and be afraid of. Life is too short for to live on and Love is something that feels everybody's heart, we are convey to live a life of beautiful Love abound.

 About the author: 

ALVIN THIUMAI. He used to write short stories, poem, article etc. Alvin Thiumai is his pen-name.

May god bless April-Fool

Tring.....tring....  tring....tring.....
Call hungchui ongre to om number bo dia ei hunglou we.
Oh my Goodness!! Krianglu om phone re dia eina choika re.

Hi hello....
Surprisingly you happen to call me today - I said..............
Ei ngaaka pamchong katak thoudi..
She said, I LOVE YOU!!!!!
Ashung kathok lo- OH My God!! Is it true to theeeee.....
Swanka rwe Akrianglu-o
Then she laughs aloud and said...
It's An April's-fool.
O.......shit
Love You Too April-fool...Hahaha...

Tring....tring....     Tring....tring.....
Arwei kariang Chong kabia lo banui khwaaa..khwaaa......
Our April fool's last too short hehe I beg you for more..
Arwei kariang nikhat inhin latre.


April fool's gone now, so I really Love you, Love APRIL FOOL'S GONE NOW!!
 But God do bless April fool's day.
Our chats now on Love each day, each other.
We crossed "that day" .......

God bless April fool's day.
Love really be extended
April fool, Love April fool
April fool's gone now.







                        -M. Riamroi

Farewell to my old village

           

Behold, Kabuikhullen
Mother of the Inpui tribe 

Situated at the lofty mountain

You gave life to flora and fauna

    

  Behold! We missed your presence

  Forgive us for leaving you behind.

  Your breast with plenty milk          beckone us

  No one sees you but God the Almighty.

Though we left to other places of yours 

We want you like oasis in the farthest desert

Money cannot give a safer place as your bosom.

No one sees you but God the Almighty.

Oh no! The world is too soon to let loose the reign of terror,

Letting me to depart from you.

Won't you rise to beg us Farewell.

As we depart with tears all abound

Memories with memories we long back

Into your bosom of blossom fragrance sweet.

Every old wept and your children too

We moves leaving your defence of long History Glory with praises.

Songs of deep from inner heart making FAREWELL, OH FAREWELL KABUIKHULLEN......

        

                         -Riamroi brother.

  

 Image; google

Father's day diary

Father's day special

Today, the father's day, I gave my whole credit to you Father. Your love and care, your strength and labor, I'm so thankful to you my dad.
On this day may our Almighty loving God BLESS YOU abundantly as you continue to live on.